I always want to fight in a war. To work for a cause outside (“greater”) than myself, but just fulfilling a duty. To blindly fulfill a duty.
I like that.
Vietnam: “This is war. This is what we do.” – Roger Harris. Just do your job. Just get it done. But not for the grind but because of duty. A greater duty. Others. Rambling because I’m finding this hard to defend, to not be laughable.
Also suicidal people (me) are generous and giving and sacrificial because we Know that it’s going to end, and it’s going to end soon so give it all away.